So...Today I went to the orthopedist for what could have been the last time for a really long time...But something very strange happened. I sprained my left wrist IN THE MIDDLE OF THE APPOINTMENT! I now understand just how careful I have to be.
I have about 6 months left until I will know if I need surgery or not.
I'm in a restless mood. I was stuck in bed last Wednesday AND yesterday with really bad stomach aches, and now I'm resting my left arm more than usual. The stomach aches could have been prevented and the sprain could have been too I guess.
But I'm eating healthy again! I'm hopeful that I won't get sick anytime soon! I'm hopeful and praying that my friends and relatives won't get sick either!
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Monday, April 7, 2008
The Creek
For me at least...Today was an amazing day!
I went to the creek in the afternoon and traveled aimlessly for over an hour! First I sat on a fallen down tree, and then I started walking around. I eventually came to a familiar waterfall and so I sat on top of that! Then I came to a bridge, which is actually part of a private property, but I walked under it and kept going until I came to a creepy looking bridge, and then I turned around. I sat under the first bridge for a while and threw some rocks, I liked the noise they made. And then I chalked "Smile" on the inside of the bridge. The chalk will come out next time there is a good rain around here. It's actually not sidewalk chalk, it came from a very sharp rock that I found. I left it under the bridge too, I know exactly where it is! Maybe I will write a lot of nice messages, and if anyone else ever finds them, they will be blessed...Or angry...
I went back to the fallen down tree and sat there for a half hour. I sent my mother a text message telling her that I was at the creek and then she sent me a text asking me what my middle name was. Later in the day she told me that she asked that so that she would know it was really me. And that actually scared me!
But while I was still at the creek I had some alone time with God. I sang a song to him and I felt fairly focused, it was nice! Better than it has been lately.
I liked going to the creek alone today but I want to take someone with me next time.
I went to the creek in the afternoon and traveled aimlessly for over an hour! First I sat on a fallen down tree, and then I started walking around. I eventually came to a familiar waterfall and so I sat on top of that! Then I came to a bridge, which is actually part of a private property, but I walked under it and kept going until I came to a creepy looking bridge, and then I turned around. I sat under the first bridge for a while and threw some rocks, I liked the noise they made. And then I chalked "Smile" on the inside of the bridge. The chalk will come out next time there is a good rain around here. It's actually not sidewalk chalk, it came from a very sharp rock that I found. I left it under the bridge too, I know exactly where it is! Maybe I will write a lot of nice messages, and if anyone else ever finds them, they will be blessed...Or angry...
I went back to the fallen down tree and sat there for a half hour. I sent my mother a text message telling her that I was at the creek and then she sent me a text asking me what my middle name was. Later in the day she told me that she asked that so that she would know it was really me. And that actually scared me!
But while I was still at the creek I had some alone time with God. I sang a song to him and I felt fairly focused, it was nice! Better than it has been lately.
I liked going to the creek alone today but I want to take someone with me next time.
Saturday, April 5, 2008
April is off to a Bad Start...
For me at least. I feel like the enemy decided to torture me from different angles as soon as April started. I keep hearing lies that I'm not focusing on God enough, especially during worship. And the sad thing is that I focus so much on not focusing, that I stop focusing. And by time I realized that I have lost focus, I'm too sad and ashamed to continue worshipping. God deserves my worship and I can't give it to him. Worship is how I connect with God in the greatest way and the enemy is stopping me from doing it.
And for some strange reason I find myself being selfish! If anyone asks me for help my first thought is that helping them would look good on my record. I DON'T CARE ABOUT MY RECORD BUT I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT IT! And it's tearing me apart! It makes me feel like I'm helping people because I love myself...Not because I love them.
I'm auditioning for a worship team soon. For harmony vocals. But I feel like unless I have a guitar in my hands, I'll be an unimportant member of the team. I look at the girls who sing harmony now and I admire them, I know they are important. But voices keep telling me that I won't be.
But I'm going to audition anyway!
And for some strange reason I find myself being selfish! If anyone asks me for help my first thought is that helping them would look good on my record. I DON'T CARE ABOUT MY RECORD BUT I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT IT! And it's tearing me apart! It makes me feel like I'm helping people because I love myself...Not because I love them.
I'm auditioning for a worship team soon. For harmony vocals. But I feel like unless I have a guitar in my hands, I'll be an unimportant member of the team. I look at the girls who sing harmony now and I admire them, I know they are important. But voices keep telling me that I won't be.
But I'm going to audition anyway!
Thursday, March 27, 2008
Advice
So this afternoon I was making boiled eggs to go over Triscuits. I turned the stove burner off and put my hand right into the pot...STUPID!
Now my thumb has a nice red mark on it.
Don't stick your hands in boiling pots.
Now my thumb has a nice red mark on it.
Don't stick your hands in boiling pots.
Monday, March 24, 2008
I Knew TV Shows Could be Heartless But This is Ridiculous!!
I'm angry...
I just watched part of a TV show called "In Your Wildest Dreams" and it was one of the most cruel, heartless and terrible shows I have ever seen! It's a show about a real lady who goes to real people and interprets their crazy dreams. Ok nothing harmful about that. I wasn't even paying attention to the show until I heard the narrator call the first patient a subject. And then I thought...WHAT?! Not once did the interpreter or the narrator call someone else a person, a man, a woman or even a patient! They were always called subjects.
I don't want to be judgemental but when anyone refers to anyone else as something less than a person it seems like the first person is trying to make themselves feel above the other. And that's just wrong. Math is a subject. Humans are WAY above math!
What's 2 + 2?
See? You're above math! You awesome person you!
I just watched part of a TV show called "In Your Wildest Dreams" and it was one of the most cruel, heartless and terrible shows I have ever seen! It's a show about a real lady who goes to real people and interprets their crazy dreams. Ok nothing harmful about that. I wasn't even paying attention to the show until I heard the narrator call the first patient a subject. And then I thought...WHAT?! Not once did the interpreter or the narrator call someone else a person, a man, a woman or even a patient! They were always called subjects.
I don't want to be judgemental but when anyone refers to anyone else as something less than a person it seems like the first person is trying to make themselves feel above the other. And that's just wrong. Math is a subject. Humans are WAY above math!
What's 2 + 2?
See? You're above math! You awesome person you!
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Adventures With my 'lil Cousin
Today was just grand! I spent it with my 10 year old cousin Markeese and we had a lot of fun! He rode a bike up to my house and he and I sat around watching random videos on YouTube...We watched an anaconda vomit a hippo. A REAL ANACONDA VOMIT A REAL HIPPO! There's some crazy stuff on YouTube!
When the videos got boring and after a short Bop-It showdown we literally ran down the street and escaped to the slightly flooded creek! Two minutes after arriving Markeese tried to jump over some water and ended up in it. The water wasn't cold! It was cool, cool enough to put your hands in. So we looked for a cool spot to chill out and we found a dead frog. I thought it was plastic and then Markeese poked it with a stick...It wasn't plastic. R.I.P little frog!
We found an awesome rock in the middle of the creek but no way to get to it. So we built a bridge of other rocks, during the process I fell into the water. Only my legs got wet though. Eventually we made it to the rock and sat there for five minutes and then went back up to my house to play basketball with a flat ball. We played Horse but he wanted to spell Superman. Haha he was pretty good! He spelled Sup and I spelled...Well let's just say I was so bad that I probably spelled Superman five or six times.
Then we played NBA Live 2008 on the Playstation 2, in which I RULE! Sort of.
Tomorrow is a doctors appointment, babysitting and TheUG for the battle of the bands finals! Woohoo!
When the videos got boring and after a short Bop-It showdown we literally ran down the street and escaped to the slightly flooded creek! Two minutes after arriving Markeese tried to jump over some water and ended up in it. The water wasn't cold! It was cool, cool enough to put your hands in. So we looked for a cool spot to chill out and we found a dead frog. I thought it was plastic and then Markeese poked it with a stick...It wasn't plastic. R.I.P little frog!
We found an awesome rock in the middle of the creek but no way to get to it. So we built a bridge of other rocks, during the process I fell into the water. Only my legs got wet though. Eventually we made it to the rock and sat there for five minutes and then went back up to my house to play basketball with a flat ball. We played Horse but he wanted to spell Superman. Haha he was pretty good! He spelled Sup and I spelled...Well let's just say I was so bad that I probably spelled Superman five or six times.
Then we played NBA Live 2008 on the Playstation 2, in which I RULE! Sort of.
Tomorrow is a doctors appointment, babysitting and TheUG for the battle of the bands finals! Woohoo!
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Safety Near the Ocean
These are just some random thoughts I've been pondering all day.
I've been to the ocean, and there is something about that place that's different. I find that interesting because the ocean is dangerous! But something about listening to it, looking at it and feeling it against my feet, makes me feel safe! All of the dangers that are around me (Not including the ocean itself) are gone! Guns, car accidents, heartbreak, drugs, none of it exists.
When I'm near the ocean or simply thinking about it, I hear the Lord sing part of a song to me. It's a well known song! "My Heart Will Go On" by Celine Dion. The Lord sings this to me,
"You are safe in My heart and, My heart will go on and on." Perhaps the ocean is his heart.
I've been to the ocean, and there is something about that place that's different. I find that interesting because the ocean is dangerous! But something about listening to it, looking at it and feeling it against my feet, makes me feel safe! All of the dangers that are around me (Not including the ocean itself) are gone! Guns, car accidents, heartbreak, drugs, none of it exists.
When I'm near the ocean or simply thinking about it, I hear the Lord sing part of a song to me. It's a well known song! "My Heart Will Go On" by Celine Dion. The Lord sings this to me,
"You are safe in My heart and, My heart will go on and on." Perhaps the ocean is his heart.
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